Back at this tiny little space to update my blog a little.

While i'm over here being really thankful for this june holiday for me to finally take a short break from studying, i cant believe how 6 months just past by like that. Like i just checked my handbook one day and im like crappppppp a week more to june holidays you serious?! This june holiday isnt really a holiday for me i should say hahaha i went back to school for my mother tongue o level and i have like english language paper on week 4 who the fuck have prelims during holidays right my school is so weird. 

Talking about mother tongue o level, i didnt come out of the room like "FUCKYEAH A1" but i came out more like "hmmmm manageable". I dont want to be too overly confident because being too confident always land themselves in a bad ending hahaha not cursing anyone!! I really hope the bell curve is in everyone's favour please argh

People ask me if im coping well with o level, too early to gauge right now but i think i am managing well hahah provided if i stop sleeping so much in class. No fucking idea what happened to me this year but i just kept dozing off during lessons its just so hard for me to stay awake!! I remembered i stayed awake the whole day from 7am to 3.30pm and i was so fucking proud of myself i totally deserve a medal for that plssssss!! Even my form teacher tell me "eh i very happy today you didnt fall asleep in my lesson" HAHAHAHA well known sleeping queen here eventhough i sleep alot during lessons i still finish my homework diligently ok!! Need to stop this when term 3 starts man no joke why am i so motivated now hahaha

Questions im getting alot now is, "are you going to the jc or poly route?" I have this thing i am afraid that people say im too ambitious because like i am an NA student i dont take amaths and im in combined science, going to the jc route is really not in my favour but part of me really want to go to a jc, im just not sure which for now. I considered the poly route but i dont even know what course im interested in right now what if i end up studying some stupid crap that im not even interested in and just waste my 3 years like that?! Too scary plus haiyo poly need stress what to wear i see all my poly friends go school or fashion show i also cannot differentiate. Sooooo for now, its jc route just dont know which jc yet hopefully i dont die in there if i really get in.

I was just talking to my sis a few hours ago and like she was telling me her future plans and stuff, saying that when she reach a certain age she want to move out and be independent and like marry off of something and im over there with my mini eyes all widened up and my mouth opened. Like holy im only 17 and shes 19 and we are already having this conversation ITS JUST SCARY OK!!!! i just looked at her and said "eh im only 17 im still struggling with o's and insufficient pocket money AND YOURE HERE TELLING ME YOU WANNA MOVE OUT?!?!" So scary when you think about the future all the people you have around you now may not always be there so many changes can happen within a year and its really almost impossible to predict the future. Im only 17 now why do i keep feeling that i have no enough time to enjoy myself before i settle down HAHAH i feel so retarded that i keep stressing about the future LIKE COME ON IM NOT EVEN DONE WITH O'S HAHAH

By the way, dont you just hate it when you're really unhappy and upset over something but like you can't express it out because you will upset the other party, and you're over there just suffering in silence?!?! Its like you want to tell but the other party but they just make you look like a ridiculous bitch who is trying to find fault out of nothing. So fucking annoying some days you just wanna explode and like just kick their nuts or something for making you feel this way. I fucking hate quarrels i will do anything possible for me to avoid quarreling because i really dont like to quarrel. If you guys have been quarreling over the same matter for a couple of times, like for example maybe your boyfriend have been very close with this girl or something along that line and you dont like it, you know maybe you guys should try a different alternative other than quarreling. Maybe you can make friend with the girl he is close to, so that when they hang out together you can join in too! I personally feel that that is really the best way for couples to resolve things really, one party have to make the first move, if not you guys are going to quarrel over the same shit over and over and over again. Its never going to stop omg not sian meh?!?!? Something similar happened between me and my bf and we argued over it for like 3 times and im just so fucking sian of it one day i just decided that i am not going to care. Its very easy when you say youre not going to care wah but that fucking shit is not easy at all omg. But most importantly, you have to trust your boyfriend. When your boyfriend say he's out with his guys, he's out with his guys. He say he's at home playing computer game, he's at home playing computer games. Dont ever suspect him or like follow him and check on him or some shit because no guys like that really hahaha why am i speaking like im a love expert hehehe maybe thats my talent

I received a askfm question yesterday night, this anon was asking me if im okay with my boyfriend clubbing. Yes why would i not be would be my answer. If your boyfriend really love you or is faithful he wont be touching other people's booty or some shit. My boyfriend once told me that someone tried to grind him in the club and he was disgusted HEHEHE i was so happy to hear that actually haha!! I dont know man you really have to trust your boyfriend thats all i can say, if he do anything nasty behind your back then like maybe you should just fucking dump him la because hes a big fat jerk.

Ok i should not go on i dont want to step one love expert hahahah so shy sia but to whoever is reading this, my bestfriend joey or just some unknown stranger I HOPE THIS HELPS HAHAHA