Its 2:11 am in the morning and guess who can't sleep and is feeling emotional.

I can't believe how fast this 4 years have been for me. Sometimes i looked back at the things I've did and im like holy shit that was 2 years ago omg. I can still remember starting the year 2013 with page 1 of 365 and now its idk maybe page 315 or something of 365. Time flew so fucking fast and BAM almost all my closest friend i have in school are leaving soon. I dont know why but its just so fucking sad because so many things wont be the same without all of them. 

I wont ever have the chance to sit together with my team mates outside the SJAB room anymore and get nagged by the councilors for not moving to the quadrangle. I wont have the chance to sit together with them during recess and laugh our asses off at everything and anything. I wont have the chance to sit together with my bitches at the opposite table and eat shirleen's leftover food (she loveee wasting food). I wont have the chance to take 8 packet of drinks from the stall 8 auntie to my canteen table. I wont have the chance to feel the excitement of going down for recess to meet my bestfriend and boyfriend to tell them  how my day went anymore. If i were to continue typing this will go on forever because its just not the same without them. So so so many things wont be the same. It's just sad, really sad. This is life i guess, sometimes things just dont go the way you want it to be, but what the fuck can you do. You just got to deal with it, deal with all the changes eventhough sometimes it really hurt. I know i sound really lovehurtzxc over here c'mon its been long since i last felt this way! 

Anyway, i'm really cant wait for graduation night! I'm part of the committee and i have never done this kind of stuff before in my 16 years of life, planning and all the behind the scene job. I really wanna try it out but i dont think im cut out for this kind of stuff though, im easily frustrated when things dont go smoothly hahah maybe thats the reason  why im never a prefect in my primary school and not chosen for student councilor in secondary school hahah! Ok at least there's something im looking forward to now, because to be completely honest this holiday actually kind of suck for me. 

Just came back from Bangkok about a week ago and fucking guess what my weight (it should be mass but idc) hit 57.2kg whattttttt innnnnnn daaaaaa worldddddddddd can you feel me its like another 2.8kg and i would hit 60kg thats even scarier than The Conjuring or The Grudge. Hahah people get kind of annoyed with me when i say i'm fat, oh pls wait till you touch my tummy bet you'll freak out hahaha but luckily my weight dropped to 55 kg (big sigh of relief) my intial weight was 53 though I NEED TO SEE THAT NUMBER ON MY WEIGHING SCALE!!!

HAHA i actually hope no one read this MUAHAHA 

let's end this off with a picture so when i read back  my archive next time i know how stupid i sound